Vintage figurine, photo by Eva 2014
Christmas always seems to be the season of high expectations. People expecting certain gifts and events to happen…expecting the “perfect” family Christmas gathering where everyone behaves and is loving to one another. The expectation of gifting/receiving the “perfect” gift. The expectation of many young women my daughter’s age of being proposed to and given the “perfect” engagement ring…and the list goes on.
Since I got my Reiki 1 attunement, I found I was(and still am) overly irritated about almost everything. My Reiki teacher told me to meditate on this and find out what lesson I had to learn. After a while, the word “expectations” surfaced and when I pondered more, the whole concept of “letting go of expectations” hit me as my answer.
I realized then that I’d been spending most of my life “expecting” things to be different…and expecting people to behave a certain way. And the realization that this has been going on for most of my life is humbling. Expectations for a different life, different job, different financial status over the years…Almost being married 25 years and I have this whole time been expecting my husband to be the stereotype of what I expected husbands to act and be(thanks to the media, books, bits and pieces of men I have known)…and becoming more disappointed and irritated over the years that it wasen’t developing. When, in reality, I should have been appreciating the good things about him that do exist.
I have also been irritated about work, my finances, house, clutter, weather, and the list goes on and on. I know now that I have to let go. Simply…Let….Go. It’s not going to happen overnight. It may not even happen in a year…but little by little, I am going to let go of the expectations I have about every facet of my life. Do I know how to do this? Not really. My thought is that I will consciously have to concentrate on eliminating the expectations one by one. Letting go of judgements of people and events. Oh boy, I have my work cut out for me…
til next time…Eva